Keep on keeping on.

Sometimes you are never going to understand why people treat you like shit when you have been nothing but honest and loving toward them. It took me a while to realize that I don’t need those people in my life. Better late than never

Quartinos Ristorante

Last night my boyfriend and I decided to head out into the city for some delicious Italian food and wine tasting at Quartino’s Wine Bar and Ristorante.

We ordered the calamari and polenta fries as appetizers. The calamari was really good, not chewy at all which I was really pleased with. The polenta fries on their own would have been very bland but with the red bell pepper salsa as the dip for the fries it was pretty great. I decided to go my normal

YUM!

After dinner we headed back to his place in the city and decided to jam out to some tunes in the car. It feels so nice to be around someone that makes me genuinely smile and feel beautiful again. I had forgotten how to feel good about myself after my break up with Pete and I’m really feeling worthy of being in a relationship again. Once Pete and I called it quits I didn’t feel like I could find a person that would care for me in that way again because I thought our connection was so strong (which it was). But it feels so great that someone else besides Pete can see my true worth and really care for me for who I am on the inside. I’ve been open and honest with my current boyfriend about my past and the things that happened between  Pete and I that have made me a guarded person. Thankfully, he’s willing to take things slow with me knowing that I had gone through a lot during the summer. His patience shows me that he wants to be around me regardless and won’t just pick up and run when the going gets tough. It feels amazing to be regarded as that important of a person to someone again.

- much love everyone have a safe Halloween weekend!!! cannot wait for thanksgiving!!

Ang

Last week of October! :)

I cannot wait until October is over, I really have never been a huge fan of Halloween to be honest. Although I have rocked some crazy costumes!

Jean Grey (the Pheonix)

My version above

I was also a “single lady” from Beyonce’s video:

Last year I went with: French maid:

and Cowgirl:

This year I’m going to be cat women and probably going to figure a second outfit the spur of the moment

I kind of wish that we could just skip over this holiday and get to Thanksgiving already!

Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays. Last year was a great one…

Come to think of it,  last winter  was when I decided to start this blog, one of my favorite memories and first posts was when I made these delicious cookies:

Recipe is located in my recipe section under Peanut Butter Graham Cracker Smore bites!

Looking back at my previous posts last year during Novemeber was such a fun month for me…

Alpha Sigma Alpha boat cruise!

fun nights out with Pete,

girls nights out

I’m sure by now many of you are wondering about what happened between Pete and I. Overall, things just were not working between us and I truly believe that its for the best we went our separate ways. Although we are still friends and cordial with one another I’m not sure that being with him was right for me anymore although I did love him to the fullest of my abilities… as many of you know, Sometimes love just isn’t enough. :/

Nevertheless, the memories we shared were fun and they did make me grow up as a person. November of last year I was in a completely different place in my life but I do believe that I would never regret anything I went through, it made me learn to keep my heart a tad more guarded and not wear my heart on my sleeve so much… This way getting hurt won’t  happen  so easily again.  I’m currently dating someone else now…. Although I refuse to write about that on this blog at least until things are more serious, we just started seeing one another and are just taking things slow which is exactly what I need at the moment. So far so good though.

 

One thing is for sure all my girls were therefore me throughout this difficult breakup with Pete which was pretty awesome

 

One thing is forsure my girls were there for me throughout this time which I love them for.

Alpha Sigma Alpha boat cruise!

On a lighter note, I’m thinking of changing my hair color to this color again instead of the blonde I have currently,

Thinking of going back to this hair color instead of the blonde what are your thoughts?

Have a happy monday!

Progression Plan day FOUR

Hi there!

Yesterday was a total workout success. I ran a 5 k (sprinting the first 2 miles at a 16 minute time then the last mile I would stop at every .25 mile and do a 1 minute and 30 second plank). I decided to fuel up afterward with a container of Siggi’s Yogurt an apple and  some granola. DELICIOUS!

Today I’m heading out for Margaritas with my girlfriends … I will probably stick with my Negro Modelo

 

The last time I went to Cesars was Cinco de Mayo, This place is always packed so were getting there early tonight. Hope you have fun friday plans as well

Have a fun weekend!

-Ang

Progression Plan day 2 and a healthy Lunch :)

Hey ya’ll!

This is a recent picture of me, I know I've been MIA so I wanted you all to get to see what I'm looking like now and what hair color I've chosen these days!

I just finished up my African American Literature Midterm it was a challenging midterm but I think I studied thoroughly enough to pass with a B or an A. The midterm consisted of 15 texts (fiction, non fiction, poems and slave narratives) and we had to explicate each text, talk about hard. But I think I was able to develop a pretty good explication based on the author’s use of certain words, syntax and point of view. I hope that my efforts were conveyed well enough to get a clear message across. I’ve always seemed to have trouble writing what I mean. It reminds me of one of the poems I had read for class,

By then the poetry is written

And the wild rose of the world
blooms to last so short a time
before its petals fall.
The air is music
and its melody a spiral
until it widens
beyond the tip of time
and is lost
to poetry and the rose –
belongs instead to vastness beyond form,
to universe that nothing can contain,
to unexplored space
which sends no answers back
to fill the vase unfilled
or spread in lines
upon another page –
that anyhow was never written
because the thought could not escape
the place in which it bloomed
before the rose had gone.

The last three lines to me convey entrapment of the mind. The idea that our thoughts cannot escape our minds before our thoughts have gone away. To mean this speaks volumes of my life. I’ve always felt like I have had so many perceptions about life within my mind but words alone could not convey those feelings and thoughts and even if I wanted words to convey my thoughts they would not be able to because my thoughts are so quickly lost within my mind again. I think this reminds me of how love cannot be put into words and even if it could our minds wouldn’t be able to describe the love we feel for someone. It’s as if our thoughts and feelings of love that bloomed in our minds are trapped because words alone could not do our feelings justice.

I believe that I had  (in the past) felt  enough  love for someone that my own words could not describe what I would do for that person. Even thought I have tried time and time again to write my feelings about the person I love on paper and tell them how much they mean to me my written thoughts could NEVER do my true feelings justice. I guess that’s the beauty of love, it cannot ever be put into words.

I think that studying these poems has really opened my mind up and I’m glad that I dedicated my day to studying yesterday and got an awesome 5 mile run in with a friend. My progression plan really is on its way

Lunch today was….

with Munster cheese and a side of chopped up zucchini, tomatoes and peppers!

Hope you have a lovely Afternoon I’ll be back again later

–Ang

Progression Plan Day 1

Today I decided to start back up my long run workout.

My workout looked like similar to this (although the  MPH are not exact):

• 1-5 mins 6.0 MPH pace (no incline)
• 5-10 mins 7.0 MPH pace (no incline)
• 10-20 mins altering between 8.0 MPH and 6.0 MPH (no incline)
• 20-25 mins  6.0 MPH pace (no incline)
• 25-35 mins altering between 7.5 MPH and 6.5 MPH (no incline)
• 35-38 mins 6.5 MPH pace (2.5 incline)
• 38-40 –> Cool down at 3.0 MPH (incline at 7.5)
• 40-45–> 3.0 MPH pace (no incline)

Overall this was the longest run I have done in about 3 or 4 weeks. LET ME TELL YOU, It feels good to be back!!! But I am pretty sore already so tomorrow I am thinking of doing an arm toning work out to give my core and legs a little break.Progression Plan is on track I’m back into my workout routine and I have studied for this midterm today, I feel on top of my **** and it feels good. I am also proud to say day 1 of not eating meat has been a success!

Midterms are just around the corner and I know that I need to be eating well in order to perform well on all of my papers and tests. What I plan on whipping up  for breakfast tomorrow is a green monster … It doesn’t get much better than that…

Thursday night I plan on catching up with an old friend of mine for dinner and drinks (ok maybe it’s a date ) I’m pretty excited to spend some time with this guy again

Friday night a bunch of my girlfriends are planning on heading out for sushi. I was never a big sushi fan until my ex boyfriend took me there a bunch now I go at least once every couple weeks (or try to!).  I’m not going to lie, I do not look at nor touch the sushi that has raw fish in it (I know I am considered a joke of a person since I go out for sushi and don’t eat the traditional stuff). I cannot seem to get over the fact that I am eating raw fish so I go for the cooked rolls instead (those with shrimp, avocado, mango, cucumber).

What are your favorite sushi rolls?

 

I also plan on heading over to my local crafts store to purchase some items so that I can start making the homemade Christmas  ornaments I want to give out this year to my family and friends. I also want to purchase some items that will help me make homemade decorations for thanksgiving (I LOVE thanksgiving!)

What are some fun craft ideas you have for the holiday season? I would love to hear some ideas for fun holiday crafts I can do with my little cousins

Time for me to study for my midterm while watching the biggest loser (I’m obsessed).

Hope your Tuesday evening  is going well! Much LOVE!

-Ang

Guess who’s back? Back again… Progression PLAN!

SO Sorry for the lack of posting, been busy with the new school year but I have found time to start again

This is what I look like now haha:

me and my girlfriend Maxie

There has been some huge changes in my life within the past couple months. But instead of looking at those issues as negative  (which would be so very easy for me to do) I have began to look at things in a different way. I try to remind myself that somewhere, someone has it worse and my issues are not the end of the world.

It’s  easy for me to get wrapped up in my own issues but when I feel like there are people going through much worse every single day I immediately stop the negatives thought process and do some sort of good for someone else that’s around. I think its easy to say that as people we tend to look at ourselves as nouns… “who am I? I’m Angie.” But today, I have decided look at myself as a progression a person who is always changing and always learning.  I’m not just “Angie” a person who remains the same everyday,  I’m an ever-changing version of myself and I hope that each and everyday my changes will make me a more successful, happy, kind and generous person.

What type of progression do I hope to see within myself the next couple months?

•  I hope to be a more dedicated student again, I had lost my lack of motivation in school and am determined to get that back starting tonight by studying ( of course watching the bears game at the same time ) <– Make designated time to study when I come home from Class Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays from 1-2:30 is my time slot for studying and homework.
• I hope to be a more organized person <– I lose things to often… I need to put things back in their place to avoid that.
• I hope to be a person that can handle the obstacles life as thrown at me… How might I go about achieving this is tough but here is my start: By not focusing on negative issues life has thrown my way but instead focusing on the areas of my life I can control, my health, my determination to overcome the bad, my creative side, my circle of friends (I have had to cut some very important people out in my life because they were not acting as friends anymore, time to cut out the people who really are not there for you in order to make room for those who really do),
• I hope  to be a person that will  to help others succeed (tutoring, teaching, mentoring).
•  I hope to become a person that is much better at  making sure that my workout and nutrition is balanced. that the amount of exercise I partake in corresponds to the amount of nutrition I am getting <–  I need to make sure that the amount of working out corresponds to the amount of NUTRITION I am receiving. After all it’s all about the balance!
• I hope to be a person that is a vegetarian again! That’s right, I am taking the vow to not eat meat like i did from January to April of this year. I realized I was much happier when I was doing this.

What I have realized is this: I have control over much more than I think and  instead of focusing on what I cannot control I will only think about the things I can!  So whenever I see myself to start thinking about the negative obstacles life has thrown my way I  VOW to take this step (this is the key to the progression plan:

I will stop and focus my time on something I love to do that I have in my control like working out, arts and crafts (I want to start making  Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas decorations of my own!), catching up on some literature that I need to read for classes, tutoring a child in need, whipping up a healthy vegetarian dinner, making sure I put everything back in its place or proper order (to maintain organization), Start to recreate the management plan I made for my future classroom, begin to apply to be a tutor for young children in need, race in a 5k during thanksgiving, start to raise money for Ahepa Marrow Organization, etc… Basically I VOW to focus on things in my control, not things that I cannot control.

That is my start to my PROGRESSION PLAN I Plan on maintaining this plan for at least these last two months of the year starting today (the last day of school in December of 2011 is the end of the plan) … what is your progression plan or goals for the end of this year?

What progression do you hope to see within yourself in the next couple months?

I felt the need to share with you all the little craft I decided to make today out of clay…

HALLOWEEN IS COMING! What are your plans?? What will you be?!