“Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace and gratitude.” ~Denis Waitley
I had spent much of March and April forgetting what it meant to be happy. By June I could honestly say that I began to focus my life more on my own happiness and what that truly meant for me. Everyone is different. Some of the things that bring me joy my family may never understand, nor will my friends but all I can really say is that today (and everyday) I wake up with a smile on my face knowing that what I have planned for the day will help me maintain that smile.
For those two months (mostly March and June) I was going through some problems, health wise (nothing regarding weight or depression, nothing of that sort) but mostly an issue that my doctors were pressuring me to have fixed through surgery. Needless to say, I was a complete mess, I was CONSTANTLY worrying about my health which stressed me out even more and in turn I was not allowing my body to heal itself since I was fully or worry/stress.
Not only was my health becoming an issue during this time period, I was going through some things that I didn’t know how to handle in a healthy way which didn’t make matters for my health any better. It wasn’t until I June that I told myself I was not going to focus on my health but instead focusing on doing the things that make me feel good everyday. If I did that, I told my self, things would begin to clear up on their own. They did 
I was contacted by my doctor last week who told me that surgery was not a necessary option anymore since things were beginning to heal on their own. He was quite shocked to see this healing process happening so soon. I believe a lot of this has to do with my grandmother helping me through this (she passed away a little over a month ago now). I also truly believe and owe thanks to God for telling me to not have the surgery. Something in my head told me that things would clear up on their own with prayer and living a life full of enjoyment and pleasure. It really worked. I’m truly thankful to God for my life today. Each day I wake up to try and be a better person than I was the day before by helping my family and friends just like they helped and aided me while I was stressed and worried about my health issues.
My cousins, sister, brother, mom, dad and aunts were the people there for me most through the stressful and worried months of March and April. June was an amazing month for me and happiness is now something I know I have a choice in making. I can wake up each day and decide whether I want to maintain my happiness through activities I love. Once I realized this, everything seemed to fall into place.
I had a “spiritual awakening” if you will haha when I realized that happiness is a choice, a frame of mind, a perspective one chooses to hold. If you’d also like to choose happiness, I recommend:
1. Make a list of behaviors and habits of mind that you know create happiness for you.
These are the things that are Within Your Control! My list included:
Living in the moment
Loving my family
Spending time with my little cousins
Hanging out with friends
Rekindling older relationships
Making room for new relationships
Working on relationships that I want to maintain (which can take energy out of me so I’ve decided to make my efforts to maintain healthy relationships by maintaining a healthy relationship with myself. By maintaining a healthy relationships with myself and loving who I am as a person I feel that my relationships with others begin to magically work on their own!)
Being thankful to God for my life and health** big one for me
Taking more classes I love like spin and yoga
Going for short walks around my neighborhood
Reading
Showing people I care by doing them favors when they ask
All in all, I feel much happier, lighter, and more alive these last 2 months now that I have chosen happiness…
What would your list include?
Much Love- Ang
God BLESS!
lol)… But nevertheless today was just great!
